Me Today!

Feel a bit alienated from the world out there...Antisocial
Listen to--The Cling: Falling down

Hi, you guys! *Trying to sound cheer*
I'm on the middle of my Community Psychology Essay. I should be finished it but I bored. So, I blog. What A solution! *Cynical tone*

Anyways, my life this week was/still so busy and ambivalence. I mean I like school but the home works are killing me. Not that I'm panic. I’m just being hyperbolic. LOL. I try my best, tho. FYI, I'm surrounded by so many thick psychology books and papers that's way I feel so alienated from the world. LOL

This week the sun is shinning brightly! Man, I never realize I really miss the sun. *Waves to the Sun* I really like the heat and the light, all of them. I love Sun! Not that I hate Rain, I still love rain but not in daylight. Besides, rain in daylight makes me lazy to go to Campus. I already skip 2 classes because of the rain the other day. Yes, I did. Shame on me *said with a regret* Ahahahahaha.

Oh, yesterday is Tanti's Birthday! Happy Birthday Tanti! I love You! Anyway, she gave me this poem for her return letter. I sent her a 'love and care' letter for her the other day. This is what she sent me back. It's dedicated for me.

THANK YOU
for being my friend

Thank you for believing in me
When I found it difficult
To believe in myself...
For saying what I've needed to hear sometimes
Instead of what I've wanted to hear..
For siding with me
And for giving me another side to consider..

Thank you for opening yourself up to me..
For trusting me with your thoughts
And disappointments and dreams...
For knowing you can depend on me
And for asking my help when you're needed it..

Thank you for putting so much
Thought and care and imagination into our friendship...
For sharing so many nice times...
And making so many special memories with me...

Thank you for always being honest with me
Being kind to me..
Being there for me..

Thank you for being
A friend to me
In so many meaningful ways...

Awwwww..........That was so beautiful...someone dedicated a poem for me. How sweet. I love her more! Now I have to buy something nice for her! damn! Kiddin'

And my mom still thinks I'm an antisocial person! LOL. Seriously, just because I have 'not having fun all the time' friends, she thinks I'm antisocial! LOL. Mom...This is proving you're WRONG!

Talking about my friends, Iqbal's birthday is on Feb 29th!! YES, IT'S ONLY COME ONCE IN 4 YEARS! Now, there are no excuses for you not to treat us lunch, Iqbal!! LOL.

With Iqbal, Deep and me, we're trying to take over our Campus Mag. For real. It’s become so fuckin LAME on the Old hand. The Mag sounds like a joke on the Old Hand. He made it sounds like a teenage mag, more awful, like a cheap magazine. I mean, this is not how I see about our Campus Mag--Psyche--I see it more like a philosophical mag which sensitive about our issues around the globe. Well, just wish us luck, next semester we will take over the world..er..I mean the Campus Mag. LOL.

Ey, have you see Sean's new pic? I dare you to NOT to drool over your computer keyboard. He's fucking HOT. I never see him so hot like that. For real.
Wait.
Take a tissue
Or
napkin.
Or
Cover your mouth with
Your two hand--yes, make it two.
Or
Cover your eyes.
It's contagious.
TADA....



You're drooling! I can SEE it! ahahahahahaha.

He's scary, isn't he? Trust me he's scary. I think our 'treatment'--throwing rocks at him--is actually working! LOL.

Hem, speaking of scary. I have a stalker. Yes, a true one. This is scary, I already talk to some of my friends about it, haven't talk to Dimas about it tho, I'm afraid he will freakin out. This stalker--who commit to be named Rohid--knows my home, my school, my home phone number, my cell phone number, and he said he SEE me. I'm scare. He calls me every night. If he calls me on my cell phone I didn't pick it up. He scares me.
Rick said I have to take self-defense lessons. Yeah, maybe I must. And Rick(toria)--don't you love that name! LOL--said I must NEVER walk alone. I'll keep that in mind, Rick. Thanks.

Anyfuckinway, I have to get back to my so called Community Psychology Essay. Have a nice weekend--unlike mine! LOL

Dedication for the Pluggins

Thanks for being supportive and being there for me when I need it. I know we never really meet in a real life. I know some of us, get separated by oceans and continents (there's an ant on my screen--random!), but it never separate our friendship that we build inter bloggers or journals. I know I might not be sensitive with all of you guys problem. I know I was wrong, but I try my best to give you the best of me. I try to open up. It actually helps my problems too. Thanks for everything guys! I love you all! Seriously. I’m not saying 'I love you' all the time you know…

Thanks to :

Kat, We just knowing each other, but I really find you so Interesting, I admire your way of thinking and your force to take Tim Armstrong away from me. LOL.

Emil, The next time you read my wish list, don’t just read. Buy some for me! And what's with Republica? they were good! Be nice.

Zahira, You and Alex are definitely going to married. I can sense that. Quotes from Mr. Sinatra--"love and marriage, love and marriage, they'll go together like a horse and carrige, this I tell you, brother(sister), you can't have them without the other..."
Thanks for the support girl! Thanks for always checkin on me.

Ziameze, You’re boyfriend is so romantic, You both are so lucky. So we wait for the Happy April okay! And thanks for the taggie.


Nita, I’ll be good with Dimas, I want this to work out. I will try. And he said he only be OPEN on me and no one else. And the good news is I believe in him. *background music--Ronan Keating: she believes in me* LOL

Ethan-mushy, Don’t be mushy again Ethan. I know how you feel about taken care by someone and blah blah--I wont tell in Public, don’t worry. You’ll get yourself a wickedly kind GF. Sooner or later. Maybe God just give you time to really miss love so you can appreciate love. Well, that’s my opinion on my problem. LOL. But maybe you can use it too.

Rick(toria), Thanks for the support as a brother and friend, I need it. Maybe I will take a self-defense lesson or instead of lesson maybe I will hire a bodyguard. LOL. Anyway is there any such a thing as soulguard? Or maybe loveguard? *curious*

And Thanks everyone for the comments, the taggies and supports. I love you guys! And visit me more. LOL.

Oh, one more thing, to all of you who still not sign my GuestBook. This is a reminder! Sign my Guestbook Now!


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Me Today!

Riot, I hate V day, what coulda been worse?
Listen to--Mono: Life in mono

I'm sorry guys for not blog for so long. Not really long tho. ANyone missed me? LOL
I had a bittersweet week. It was both scary and nice.

1st, Feb 12th is one of the scariest day of my life. I haven't felt like that since 3rd grade when my mom had a surgery in her stomach. On that day, there's a lil riot in Jakarta. And Dimas was one of the victims. I dunno why, later that day, I called his cell Phone to have a lunch with me and Rizal, which I never had a lunch with him since a long time. He didn't answer it and for about ten minutes later he called me back. He said he's in Juanda Area doing a demostration with the other Univ students for some political reason in Indonesia. It's near presidential election here. And since he IS an Idealistic person--whatsoever--he's in the demo for some idealistic reason. Incase you didn't catch that I write with a cynical tone! Damn You Dimas! you made me worry!

Everything went fine until, Iqbal--my friend--called me after we finished the english debate session. I'm still on the bus stop--of course waiting for the bus. LOL.
He said "Don't go anywhere! I'll go there" I was thinking, maybe he lost something or whatever. Onbe minute, the bus came. I saw Iqbal at the street toward the bus stop. Then He yelled at me " Don't get on the bus! stop right there!" Then his face turned plae.
He said "I'm sorry but I just heard that Dimas get hurt..."

I shocked; He just called me latere that day. He sounded fine. I didn't say anthing until Iqbal told me that Dimas was still in the ER. He asked me if I wanted to go with him to the hospital. Then we went to the hospital with some friends. We took the train. I never took a train before. I never really like the train, it was alwasy dirty, full and smelly and full of pickpocket and stuffs. Ewww..but that day, I didn't think anything I just jump in it! Gee...I can't believe I did that for Dimas! He should be proud of it! LOL . Along the way on the train I kept my positive mind. I still believe he's alright.

Then we arrived at the lobby, I saw Dimas name on the board of the victims names. It was like 50 name! He was still in the ER. Iqbal went to pick him up on the ER; I didn't have the nerve to see him by myself. I was too scared. One minute, Iqbal got back with Dimas by his side. Don't worry people...He looked alright! Only--yes--only get 5 stitches in the head and 2 injections, well 3 for the sample. When I saw his face I can't believe I actually felt relieve. I felt like my worry was just disappared! I couldn't say anything, I just smiled at him and nothing more. And you know what the 1st line he sait to me was, "With what you went to here?" with that annoying smile of him. Doh! seriously! He still can mock me with 5 stitches in the head!! oh, God! Can you believe it! I almost wanna cry because of him and his stupid idelaistic reason! dammit! Dimas! you could kill yourself out there!

Because of the riot his face was become so familiar on the TV and the newspaper this week! Ahahahahahah! Lucky him, tho. A star for one week. And you know what, that day, his brother --Aulia--called me. He said, "Dont worry about Dimas, we'll take care of him"
I mean, what was that supposed to mean?! Did Dimas tell everything about me and him to his brother? Seriously?! He freaked me out! Dimas got picked up by hius father and brother that day.

The 2nd news, Feb 14th--which most of you called V day whatsoever. On that day there was an live music event in Psychology not for the V day, it's an annual event, just it happens to be on the same day as V day. Well, the day before Dimas called me from his parent house. He asked me if I wanted to accompany him to the event. Then I said, "If your parent let you go, then why not." I don't have anything to do anyway..So we went. It wasn't pretty good, I mean the 1st band was good they sang some songsfrom Weezer and Dashboard Confessional. And 2nd band sang some song from Elvis and Spin Doctor. It was good, the rest was crappy V day music..mellowing my ass..I felt like dying! ahahaha!

Everyone at the campus was so happy to see him back. and everybody was taking his head picture--his stitches actually. Ahahahaha! It was fun! He kept saying "what the fuck! are you guys crazy!" ahahahaha!

And later, almost 11 pm. He walked me home, it was a little raining i think. then we waited for the rain to stop at my place, we chatted a little. He said he like to listen to the sound of the rain! Me too!! Aww!! we're weird..Ahahahaha! Then 12 pm he went home, he had to take some rest too...the stitches effect remember? The night was nice, I mean we both didn't celebrate V day. We both believe V day is just a postmodernism effect. It's just waste your money. But it was nice.

And on sunday, Feb 15th we went to the cinema with Iqbal and Rizal. It was great. I had to take the train again. It was fun.I met the guy--Danial--who I used to date a couple time in the 2nd semester. You have to see, how Dimas looked like when we met him at the train station. It was awkward! ahahaha! I hope he wasn't jealous.

I just realized, maybe this is a sign. I inever really worry for someone except for my family and maybe I just have to make this thing work between me and Dimas. Maybe I have to forget the other person. Maybe I will never know...But I will try. I will.

I will be back with the salutation for my bloggie friends. See ya!

Me Today!

Rich person wannabe, the full moon effect and surviving skills?
Listen to--American Hi Fi: The Art of Losing

I just had a stupid dream. Seriously. I dreamt Dimas sing a song, a weird song. It hurt and he simply left my dream. What is that supposed to mean? I dunno. Let's not talk about it. I think it's because the full moon effect.

Some of you might ask about how my new week in this new semester. Well, I did survive this one week. It's just about the introduction kinda week. Some of the Professors are fun--kinda. I had the same prof in two classes--it's in the Economic Behavior class and in the Social Psychology 2 class. He's kinda perfectionist and strict type but his teaching skill is impressing! And he already knows my name! How good is that? I mean he knows your name from other 75 students! Impressing, huh? Well, it's part of 'my fault' tho. I answered his (two) questions with so damn smart ass answers. Ahahahaha. No, seriously, it was smart. He said he'll discuss about the topics I'm talking about later in this semester. Cool huh?! --Gee, I'm such a geek.

Oh, I have a nice freaky story about the Economic Behavior class. Since Dimas joining the same class, the prof asked him a question too--What do you need or looking for in this class?--and you know what his answer?!--watch out Rick. He said, "Actually I just wanna become rich!". I CAN'T BELIEVE HE ACTUALLY SAYS THAT AGAIN!! And the whole entire class laughed. I know he just joked, but sometimes I thought he really mean it. It scares me!--Remember our last convo about this, Rick? Yes, It scares me. Well, people already entitled him with the 'rich person wannabe'

About the amusement park trip. It was great! I had so much fun! We really had so much fun. The ?troopers? are Iqbal, Rizal, Tommy-Granita (They always go anywhere together! Even they made driving licenses together--aww?that?s the true meaning of romance ), Cayou, Fera, Murni, Tanti and Me! Oh, yeah and Tanti's brother and his girlfriend. Not so lots of people, but it was fun. It was fun. I kinda missed Dimas, tho. It's a bit terrible, left him alone while we have fun. Oh, well.

Ey, talking about Dimas. The other day Tanti said something to me about him, she said she caught Dimas looked at me intensely. Ahahahahaha. Then I said to her, "maybe he just counted how many times I opened my mouth". What? He used to do that! I mean it.
"No, I think he really LOOKED at you", she said. Seriously. I said, "Alright, fine, whatever. So what? No big deal". I mean, what more can I do? Or maybe he transferred to Ethan. Ahahahaha.

Anyway...Yesterday was a Korn concert. Well, since I'm not a fan of them so I didn't go there. I heard there was some kinda a little riot going on. I heard the security was so less and crapy. So yeah, shit happens. And I heard Toto will come to town too, I think it's Feb 9. But the ticket is so expensive. I can't afford that. Oh, yeah and Mariah Carey too. ACK NO! I dislike her. I dunno why. She just too way much.

I dunno what I'm talking about. I will stop.
Okay, I have to ask you guys a question. Can you love two people at a time? Comment needed. I'm confused

Thanks to Emil, Zahira, Ziameze, Nita, Ganda, Ethan, Ayesha, and everyone for the comments.