Me Today!

I hate him and myself for hating him
Listen to--Depeche Mode (rocks!) : Somebody (Yes, melancholie)

Somebody

Lead singer: Martin L. Gore
Songwriter: Martin L. Gore

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She will hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and with every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear
Of those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it

*Oh, God help me! I wanna die! this song's really scares me. Do I scare to commitment? My God I'm pathetic!*

Me Today!

My life so far..
Listen to-- Weezer: The Good Life

Lately, I've been busy with school and stuffs. But don't get me wrong, I love campus and the life of it (Yes, Ethan, including the freshmen!). The reason I couldn't get online is I have a lot of things to do--school's homeworks, work, homeworks, dating (yes, that's part of my reason. what?), homeworks, did I mention homeworks? Yeah, well, that's it I guess. Oh, yeah and lazy too. Yeah, I'm too lazy to type and update. Right, people blame the biro!!

To be honest, lately I always wanna barf every time I see a computer--reminds me of my statistics class (don't ask!).

Oh, you wanna know what classes I take for this semester. Here we go :
Developmental Psychology 2 (Now, we're talking about adolescences. Once we saw a blue film, cool huh! And on a big screen too! I wonder if on the test they'll ask about the sex position. what? possible tough..*dirty mind*)
Psychology of Industry and Organizations 1 (So damn text book! Even if the book is on Indonesian language, but still it's killing me! It's more details that Ethan's blog! Sorry Ethan, someone beat you..)
Statistics 1 (Yes, we still have Statistic 2 for the next semester!)
Identification and Developing of Creativity (Fun class! right now I'm working on my paper about a creative person -- Douglas Adams!)
Methodology of Research 2 (I don't understand why people scare of this class, I mean we only get a crazy lecturer *shrug* )

Anyhow, my love life is up and down. Yeah it's a life indeed--I kinda flow with it and I enjoy it. So, you wanna hear the story? Okay, this guy--name Dimas. We kinda in a relationship. I said 'kinda' because I'm not sure either (we called it Platonist Date--find it your self!). I mean, we do date and going out but We never declare such a thing as a relationship. But, you know what, I'm happy with this ‘kinda’ relationship. Don't get him wrong, he's a nice good guy. He respect me and all and I heard a rumor that he's the most handsome guy in Campus--yeah well, I don't buy it, I still think Ethan is still more cute (aww! >_<). And my guy friend told me that he's falling in love with me and he said that 'Dimas more love you than want you', I mean he said he does want me but he'll wait (how nice is that?? isn't he the sweetest.) But the thing is, I don't trust people easily. Yeah, I think I'm too hard on myself, do you think I am?

I do want to trust him. I mean, at last I find someone that really sweet and all (Once on the 1st semester, he moved into the same building just to hang out with me! My trustful guy friend told me.) but I dunno, I just can't! Maybe I need more proves. But all of my friends said it's really obvious that he fall for me. All of my friend said he's only let you--the only girl-- to be close with him. Maybe I'm not so sensitive about my feelings, maybe I'm not so sensitive to realize that he really fall for me. I dunno. *shrug*

Oh, well, don't get me mellow for this one. I still have a lot of things to do. Oh! dammit! I still have an article for a campus paper! Damn! I better do it now, I don't wanna be a procrastinator. The last time I procrastinating, I didn't sleep for 2 days!! Yes, It happened!

So, Ethan, I update now. Happy? (Weather report: It's start to raining out side--I think it's gonna be heavy!). And Anggie, how are you girl? Looks that you have fun with your blog! and what's with the frog face thing? that scares me! And Sean, dammit! you said Marf! you stink! *Throw rocks at Sean*. Josh, where are you?? Knock knock! earth to Josh! You're not lying dead somewhere are you?

Okay, people thanks for letting me do the rant . Love you *Hug* (My God it’s long! I hope I don’t turn to be Ethan. That’s horrible! Kiddin’ Ethan!)