Cause it's a bitter sweet symphony that's life...Try to make ends meet ,you're a slave to the money then you die...I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down...You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet...

Monday, August 21, 2006

Me Today!

I will be graduated from university! yay!
Listen to-- nothing...

Wow! I can't believe I still remember my password to my blogger...

Hell yeah! it's been a long time people! I've been trough a lot of things in 2005-2006. In 2005, I worked as an tourism ambasador from Jakarta. And in this year 2006, I finished my bachelor degree in psychology! Yay! I did it...and I still maintaining my relationship with dimas! Remember the name? HOHOHO... you must! >_<>

Anyhow...despite the euphoria...I kinda worried and confused about my future... I'm looking for a job now...I'm jobless now... but I'm still working on it tho...sending some resume and application letters to some hospital, clinic and kindergarten to became a teacher...hohoho..I will poison the kids minds...hohoho..kidding! ;-p

Oh, well...I wanna visiting my long time blogging friends...OMG! I miss you guys so much! I'm sorry I didn't send you guys anything for so long..My fault..i shoulda find some times...sorry guys... Hope this time I'll come around.. ^_^

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Me Today!

Have you ever woke up and felt lonely?
Listen to--

would you? but why?

I’m sitting here, staring blankly at my monitor, thinking how lucky my life is because I have out of loneliness. Or have I? really?

I have bittersweet life like everybody else. And the good thing to know is, I kind of enjoy every single part of it, of my life. Even if sometimes I’m just moaning about it over and over again and making people bored of my story.
I sometimes cry over it but there’s still plenty of time, I smile because of it. How odd life could be, that’s I’m thinking.
Sometimes, I argue with myself. Drowning myself into some miserable life because I have tired to be happy. Have you feel that way? I have, but then when I’m whole again, I realized I’m just trying to find me, to find the complete me and nothing else.
I enjoy the searching of me.
What about you?


I just finished watch Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind. And I’m sitting here, staring blankly at my monitor. There’s some drive in me that drag me to write what’s on my mind.
I feel...
I feel...
I feel sad for Jim Carrey as Joel Barish. Can you think, that there’s someone compulsive enough, not strong enough and try to reject their past about their loved one? I can’t think any possibilities like that. That’s too nuts. That’s too sad. Sad. Yes, sad.
I mean, I thank God that there’s nothing like that on this universe. Nothing like a machine that banished your (ex)loved ones’ memories. Why can he just move on and forgive? I believe people can forgive, even it’s hard to do. So that the memories can stay there to give you some lessons in life.

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

Or maybe it’s too...hurt. But I think it’s more hurt when you don’t remember the person that you have good memories with. Even if it’s only already end.
Well, other than that, that movie has an original story going on. So, yeah.
I never like Jim Carrey, and yeah, I think he made a good start to make me like him on that movie. Hehe.

Scary stuff, that movie. Makes me feel goosebumps just to think about it. Hope I won’t have to feel that way, going thru that pain. Because I’m not sure I can handle that myself. Again.

Monday, September 13, 2004

Me Today!

Listen to--the news sound from TV

I'm so sorry to keep you guys worry but I'm just busy with school and stuffs. The welcoming freshmen project, the psyche magazine and the new classes I'm heading...

And last, the tradegy in Sept 9th, some filty scumbag terorist bombed the australian embassy in Jakarta. Some innocent people died. Fuck terorist!

Well, got to go. Don't you worry I'm fine. Just pray with me for the victims of the Sept 9th tradegy in Jakarta. Thanks you.

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Me Today!

Me, the new public relation staff and mum get in to the hospital, Sucks!

Listen to--Battle without honor and humanity : Tomoyasui Hotei (
Kill Bill vol 1 Ost) --this OST rocks!
I'm sorry for not upload this blog for such a long time. Well, a lot of things happened. Bad and good ones. The good news is, I am now a public relation in my student organization. Yippi yay! I am so excited. I passed the 2 interviews and beat other 15 students to get into the division. Cool huh? I actually convinced them to let me join the organization. I bet that was my super power thing. LOL. Persuade people...*ahem* and rule the world. Kiddin'

And Dimas is get to the same student organization. But his position is higher than me. He's cool and can persuade people more than clever than me. Damn! Kiddin' Great for him. Maybe we can rule the world together. LOL. For sure!

You wanna know what position he is? He is now the new chairman of department of strategy and student movement. Okay, I'm not sure what it is but I think it's dealing with politics and advocation. Cool huh?! He's clever when dealing with politics stuffs. Well, as long as he can take care himself *and not get more scars*, I'll support him.

Okay now the bad news. I hate it. Well, who doesn't CJ?? My mum has dengue fever and typhus. And she is now in the hospital. Damn! I spent 3 nights in the hospital to take care of her. I love her. This is a bit scary for me. I always think the worse. But then again, thanks God, the doctor said if she'll progress well, the day after tomorrow she can go home! Yay!

Okay, got to go. Nurse call. LOL. I am now my mother nurse. Pray for my mum okay. Thanks for pluggins!

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Thursday, July 01, 2004

Me Today!

Just had a great party with my class year 2002 Psychology! yeah!
Listen to--nothing, except myself sneezing!

*sneeze* Bless me. LOL.

Wooohooo!! I just had a great party over the pool in Adi's house. It's great place, have a big area and pool. LOL. The party is only for the class year 2002 Psychology in University of Indonesia. It was great, I have a lot of fun. We talking about what we get over the years, what memories we had together, getting to know each other more...It was great! I love my class! they are all such a unique people and fun loving! I love them all! Even tough they're always gossiping about my relationship with Dimas...LOL. But it was funny and fun. They even made a gossip trough Friendster's bulletin board!! LMAO!

And dimas wrote 'I love you' in a piece of paper about me in a Snowball game in the party and it's read by all of my friends. How sweet...

Anyway..I have to sleep...I feel dizzy...

Yes, I dedicated this song for you guys...I love this song..

...Secret Garden...

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mouth
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don't think twice

You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get
To that place where you can't remember
And you can't forget

She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away